things swallowed whole
There was a knot in my throat from the moment I woke up.
And although I could swallow and I could breathe and speak, it felt like I was choking.
What if it was due to a state of mind?
I walked up and down the corridor. Which didn't help.
I stepped outside. Also didn't help.
I walked. Also didn't help.
I listened to my favorite songs. Also didn't help.
I spoke with friends. Which helped a little.
I sat under my desk, pulled in the chair, and listened to Bjork.
Which didn't actually help. But I am thinking of putting a lava lamp, beaded curtain and a bean bag chair down there.
I went to yoga and that helped. During the practice and for an hour or two afterwards I could breathe.
But now I feel a little constricted again.
Does that ever happen to you?
I am wondering if it's not a state of mind but rather a state of body. Maybe I ate something disagreeable today and I have heartburn or acid reflux. The roast beast sandwich was the wrong choice. Or perhaps there were peanuts or chickpeas hidden in my snacks or lunch today. I don't know.
Clearly, I am reacting to something.
Clearly, I need to get something out of my system.
The question is what?