Wednesday, May 30, 2007

things swallowed whole

There was a knot in my throat from the moment I woke up.
And although I could swallow and I could breathe and speak, it felt like I was choking.

What if it was due to a state of mind?

I walked up and down the corridor. Which didn't help.
I stepped outside. Also didn't help.
I walked. Also didn't help.
I listened to my favorite songs. Also didn't help.
I spoke with friends. Which helped a little.

I sat under my desk, pulled in the chair, and listened to Bjork.

Which didn't actually help. But I am thinking of putting a lava lamp, beaded curtain and a bean bag chair down there.

I went to yoga and that helped. During the practice and for an hour or two afterwards I could breathe.

But now I feel a little constricted again.

Does that ever happen to you?

I am wondering if it's not a state of mind but rather a state of body. Maybe I ate something disagreeable today and I have heartburn or acid reflux. The roast beast sandwich was the wrong choice. Or perhaps there were peanuts or chickpeas hidden in my snacks or lunch today. I don't know.

Clearly, I am reacting to something.
Clearly, I need to get something out of my system.

The question is what?


At 2:03 PM, May 30, 2007, Blogger Depth of Fish said...

Sounds uncomfortable, to say the least. Hope it's not serious. Take it easy, and take care!

At 1:35 AM, May 31, 2007, Blogger rfthmp! said...

Funny you should say that... I had that knot today, too. It was a hot lump in my throat. I reached in, and pulled out a tightly wound ball of rubber bands, which when I started unraveling became completely undone because they had all been snipped in half. The core of this lump was a hair ball of pubes. It was gross.

At 10:34 AM, May 31, 2007, Blogger Groucho Castaneda said...

Sounds like an allergic reaction. Are you taking any medications? Eat anything peculiar last night?

At 11:13 PM, June 09, 2007, Blogger BeckyBumbleFuck said...

Erm. Well , there has been a very mucuous-inducing virus going around. My mom described it as a grapefruit in her throat. On the plus side, I was told I had a very sexy voice during my bout with it (of course sex was the LAST thing on my mind.) ;) So if ya wanna turn 'em on and leave 'em hanging, this may be the perfect time...

At 5:55 PM, June 20, 2007, Anonymous Ellen said...

Yes this happens to me. It's the angst - severe ontological angst. I'm reading a good book now, and it seems to help. Maybe you should read it... hm...

(have fun on tour!!)


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